"That's putting it mildly. I wonder if I'm still in shock. I feel anxious but, not as much as I really should be..."

His hands wander again to his belly, touching it as if it's made of fragile glass.

"I'm not sure why they wanted me. And really, the timing is pretty bad. But I guess there's something to be said for getting to experience something I never would have otherwise... I'm scared. But also a little curious."